Thursday, March 31, 2011

First week over!

So, I was very happy going into my meeting last night.  I had met my goals of tracking every day, increasing my water intake and staying within my points.  I knew I hadn't met my activity goal, but 75% made me happy considering when I gave up 2 months ago, I couldn't have said I met any.  So...drum roll please...........................................................DOWN 2.2!!!  Yep, that's right...I was successful.  I was happy with my weight loss and pleased that I KNEW I had done the things I needed to do this week. is the start of a new week.
This weeks goals are:
Maintain the goals from last week of water intake, tracking, and within my points. 
ACTIVITY!  I have a challenge that I placed in front of my students to RUN a 5K on April I have GOT to get moving on my activity.  So, this week I am focusing on that...activity activity activity!  Here's to excercise!!!

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Repeat of week 1 almost done!

So far my goals have been all ok EXCEPT the working out one.  :(  I have yet to do anything about that.  NOT GOOD! 
However, my soda intake is cut WAY water intake is WAY up...I've tracked EVERY day so far...and I'm stayin in my points.  So...I'll take it...tomorrow night 6 I come!!!

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Reaching my Goals today I came back to read my blog to see I let you all in on my goals on Thursday...let's see how I'm doing on them.
Here is what they were:
Goals for this week:
Stay within my points daily -- not sure this has been accomplished as I have went into my weekly points the last 2 days.  :( is what it is...I have used some of my weekly points, but that is what they are there for right? 
Do something active both days this weekend (trying to be realistic on what I WILL do.) -- um...yeah so the extent of anything "active" I did today was walk around Michael's.  I simply enjoyed my quiet day today and never got myself around to anything least not yet.  However, there is still I will have to do it tomorrow because I'll take 50% lol...well at least it will make me feel less guilty!
Cut back on all the soda and juice...switch back to my water -- This one I have to say I have been VERY good at!  On Thursday I had a bottle of Dr. Pepper, but then on Friday I only had a can and today...........wait for it...wait for it.....NO SODA AT ALL!!!  No juice no koolaid...YEAH!  I've had a nice glass of cold milk with lunch and have had ice water the rest of the day!
Track daily!!!!!!!! -- I struggle with tracking my food because I want to pretend if I don't write it, I didn't eat it!  HEHE!  yet...I have written it down EVERY day so far...and yes even all the extra points I have eaten.  So...I have 30 of my weekly points left.  Not great at all, but at least there are still some there.  I will just have to up things so I can make it work out. 

The last thing that I'd like to share that...although I went over my points today (by 1) I did a great job of staying out of the kitchen for snacks.  I know it might not seem that way when I say I went over my points, yet I really did!  Snack wise today, I simply a WW 2 point bar and some Starburst Jelly Beans that I measured out with a measuring cup!  lol...BUT I tracked it! Thanks to my new love for crocheting for keeping me out of the refrigerator!  I think having my hands busy doin something productive took away 2 cravings...the one to eat and the one to smoke!  I wasn't bored I guess, so thus, I didn't need to fill myself up with anything.  Thank you small victories!!!

Friday, March 25, 2011

5K run/walk Fundraiser

So...I have decided I am going to train to RUN the 5K my school has going on April 30th.  I think I'm crazy...but I want to try.  I have NEVER been a runner...yet, it's a challenge I have never attempted.  One that I want to take I am going to do it. 
I would LOVE others to join me!  It is for a great cause at my school through the PE department to be able to purchast heart rate monitors for the students to help them find out what excercise and intensity level is best for each of them.  Start to promote healthy living early so my students don't feel like I do years from now!  So...anyone wanna join me???  You can find the forms to register at Clearview's 5K Run/Walk
Please come out and join me...bring your kids, make a fun family health day!  If the forms are not yet loaded on the site me and I will send them to you...I have electronic copies! 

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Back on the Wagon

So...I did it.  I went it and took the plunge on the scale last night.  I was TERRIFIED.  I was certain I'd gained like 15-20 pounds.  I am not sure that is realistic...but that is the way I felt.  Yet, I was pleasently surprised to see it was only a gain of 8.4!  Now...not perfect because it would have been better to not have had that issue at all...but dang...2 months of NOT following the program and it was only 8 pounds.  I'll take it. now comes the hard part...sticking to it.  Letting myself FORGET about the numbers on the scale.  That is NOOOOOOOOOOT easy for me.  It is like those numbers become a tattoo I etch onto my forehead every week when I get there.  I have to transform my thinking and use it as a tool to guide the next week I am going to start.  I dont' want to throw it all away like last time if I get stuck.  However, I am determined to NOT get stuck.  I WILL make this happen. 

I sit and read the Caring Bridge site of an old friend as she documents the struggles and triumphs of her little girl...shewas born MUCH to early but fights every day to just put on a few ounces.  Then I sit and complain and give up because I've gained a few ounces?  Or I can't take a few off?  Not gonna happen.  When this little 3 pound darling is fighting hourly just to remember to breathe and keep her temperature stable....what I am dealing with is nothing. and me gain it and do what you gotta do...and I'll lose it and do what I gotta do. 

Goals for this week:
Stay within my points daily
Do something active both days this weekend (trying to be realistic on what I WILL do.)
Cut back on all the soda and juice...switch back to my water
Track daily!!!!!!!!

4 things that I should be able to accomplish.  We shall see how things pan out.  I will be documenting more as things go along because it keeps me honest!  lol...Thanks for all the support...gonna make it COMPLETELY happen this time!

Monday, March 21, 2011

Gave Up

Yep...that's right. The number on the stupid scale just got stuck....and because of that...I gave up. I didn't give up on Weight Watchers...I gave up on the one thing I have given up on all my life. Me.

I didn't feel strong enough to battle through the disappointment of not making any progress. I stopped seeing where my clothes were feeling better on me as an accomplishment...I simply was dejected because the number on the scale was pissing me off. up made sense at that point. Financially I was a little strapped as well, so it was an "easy" solution. It, (WW) wasn't working anymore who cares...that is a 40 dollar monthly expense I could eliminate.

It worked...for a little while. Okay, so only like a week. day there I was in 7-11 before going to work looking at the things I have on the counter ready to buy. Large coffee with LOTS of cream, a regular Dr. Pepper, 2 small bags of salted peanuts, a 3 pack of chocolate chunk cookies and a bag of Cheetos! WTH? That was my diet of choice BEFORE my WW lifestyle. I almost cried when I realized what I was doing. Yet, it didn't stop me, cause I paid for it, walked out of the store and ate every last bite of those things during the day. I was falling back into my old ways because it was easy and it made me feel better....or so I thought.

I told myself I was still doing alright because I was eatin veggies almost every night at dinner and my meal choices were still doing alright. Until I'd go out...and then suddenly things weren't lookin so great again. But, again...I still didn't do anything to change it. I would make it look alright on the outside to everyone else, but I was actually pretty ashamed of myself for the way things were turning out.

As I was watching these things change I became more and more frustrated and stressed. When I am stressed...I smoke. So, sure enough...I bought a pack of cigarettes and the next thing I know...I'm smokin again. I look forward to them to unwind at the end of the day and just to get through things that upset me. Thus...I was smoking a lot...AND completely food medicating as well. Yet, the NEED for the "medication" is all because I gave up on myself...again.

Well, not anymore damn it! It is time for me to remember why I started WW in the first place. BECAUSE I DESERVED TO BE AS HAPPY AND HEALTHY AS I WANTED. I didn't start for anyone but me...and yet it was me that gave up again. Not anymore. In two days, I am goin to walk into my Weight Watchers meeting to see my Wednesday night family and start my journey again. I am not going to let this beat me...not this time.

I will be back on Wednesday night to let you know what the damage has been in this time away from Weight Watchers. However, at least it will be a start to the next step. So, my first challenge...go and weigh in again on Wednesday and then come back and post it for all to see. I WILL make it work...because I am in control....I hope.