Thursday, April 14, 2011

Under control

I have got to get things under control.  There was just way too much emtional stuff that I let get to me this week.  It was all out of my control, yet I was doing all I could to TRY to control it.  Yet, what it did was leave me stressed and not making good choices.  I know I didn't do the best.  Can I find some successes?  Yes, I tracked all week...I counted every point I put into my mouth...even the 4 pieces of Dominos pizza!  :(  Yet, my biggest setback....activity.
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I am not sure what it is going to take for me to realize I have GOT to get moving.  I am going to end up right where I left off before.  Stuck, upset and frustrated...and quitting.  I have even tried challenging my students to run with me in a 5K at the end of the month....have I done ANY training?  HELL NO.  I'm gonna die.  *sigh*  What is wrong with me?  Why can't I get this together? 

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Another successful week.

Oh how I WISH this is the weight that was showing last night on my scale at Weight Watchers.  That is a dream world right there, probably not one that I really want to be in either.  Not sure I am cut out to be 135 pounds!  lol....BUT...the scale was DOWN last night.  So, for that alone I am happy.  I am working on taking off the extra 8 pounds I put on when I stopped.  I want to keep the momentum going to push through the hump that I kept hitting when I gave up. 

I am happy with my progress to date...but want more.  I have found a happy balance in my eating right now so that helps.  I just realized I don't need to eat "breakfast foods" for breakfast!  They don't tend to fill me up enough to get through my day without cravings.  I eat snacks but it simply makes me want more.  So, instead I am eating a higher protein breakfast.  It tends to keep me much more satisfied and I am able to make it until my lunch time.  So...here's to another loss...time to focus on this week.  YIPPEE!

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

UGH what a struggle!

This week has NOT been good choices wise for me.  I have used almost all my weeky points which is something I have never done.  I haven't really truly "worked out" in the traditional sense.  Yes, I got activity but it was unconventional and not sure it did the job it should have.  I'm feeling a little apprehensive about tomorrow's weigh in.  I want to do it surprisingly, but I am nervous.

Friday, April 1, 2011

OMG POINT OVERLOAD

Okay...so TOTALLY did horrible yesterday!  By 4:00 yesterday afternoon I had already used 5 of my weekly points....Then because I didn't care...we ordered pizza and I ended up eating 17 points extra yesterday!  Honestly, I felt sick afterwards and really down.  I couldn't figure it out.  My man was like..."What's wrong?"  I didn't really have an answer for him.  I honestly think I was disappointed in myself for not even attempting to stay in my points yesterday. 

However, I promised myself I was going to look at the bright side of things....at least I tracked it all and at least I did it on Thursday (day after weigh in) so I have the rest of the week to stay on track.  So...here's to today...I will make it today!  (I have to...cause I still feel icky from yesterday. :( )